A lot of people mention my ‘crooked smile’ on my IG pictures.. my smile is indeed crooked. Jan 2010 I noticed my lip wasn’t completely closing. It was the slightest crack and my friend thought I was crazy. As time went on my lip began to droop more.. the next day I couldn’t close my left eye. The whole left side of my face was paralyzed. I didn’t know the cause.. no one did. I ended up getting all 4 wisdom teeth removed because many thought my tooth may have grown in and hit a nerve. 1 surgery, 4 teeth extracted, and lots of pain later.. my face was still paralyzed. I saw a doctor and she diagnosed me with bells palsy caused by extreme stress. My bf of 3 or 4 years had cheated on me for the first time and I guess I had severe emotional distress over it. I know I did.. but I didn’t think enough to paralyze half of my face. I was so insecure during this time period. I took prescribed steriods, had scans of my brain, did face exercises, tried everything. The fact my eye wouldnt close led to extreme dry eye. I had to manually blink my eye with my finger and sleep/walk around with an eye patch. My face didn’t regain some type of normalcy until March. I finally got all my movement back by May/June. But residual effects of this somewhat rare affliction are: my left eye constantly waters, my left eye doesn’t close all the way, and the muscles in my face are weak so when I smile it’s crooked. The smile line is more prominent on my right side.. making my crooked smile so noticeable. I’m proud of my crooked smile though because regardless it’s still beautiful and it has meaning. I went thru so much during those 5 months.. and really that whole year. I pray I never come down with that ailment ever again though. It’s also the reason why I try not to stress. God got it.. always.
I’ve never been so happy in all my life.. man of my dreams is finally a reality. Last night was the best.. ever. I’m so in love. Carlo is my everything.
Me’Shell Ndegeocello - Fool Of Me
This will forever be one of my favorite songs. It evokes so much emotion.. I love this song deeply.
Toni Braxton - Let It Flow (Waiting To Exhale Soundtrack)
Favorite song off the soundtrack. I used to love this album when I was little.